Why.

Yeah.Why? Why is it that even ur closest relative dun understand you..Eventhough u did something,yet to them,its like we did nothing at all.Just becos they may have not seen it with their own eyes or even if they did..its like watever we did was just..nothing.Eventhough u've done things or at least even thought of doing something nice for them,sooner or later,it just goes away unappreciated.Why?I dont know.I dont have the answer.Im asking myself this question.The way they talk to you sometimes,the way they comment about how u do things or live ur life..they sound and think as if they know so much about you,when perhaps they only know like wat?less than 50% of who i really am.I wish..i really do wish that i can share my thoughts with them.Tell them how i feel.But i find it so hard to do so.And during those times when i do so,it is only because i couldnt take it any longer and just explode there and then.Blame it on me or them or watever other reasons.Perhaps its becos of our lack of communication since i was young..I find it so much easier,so many more things i can talk with ppl whom i may just know for less than a year.Problems i can so easily share with friends ,yet so hard to open my mouth when it comes to them.The things they say that just hurt you,that just pierce right thru ur heart at times..i dont and perhaps never will understand it.Especially the part that they think they know me so well yet they dont realize how wrong they are about me.Who i really am.Even as i write this,tears are in my eyes.yet wat can i do about it but just ask God what shall i do.I know im not alone in this..i know i may seem too emotional a person but all i feel now is just some sense of dissappointment or sadness that i cant describe with words.So different from my previous post which was just yesterday rite.Yeah well.One small thing can trigger alot of things.But to me,this is just another 'small' thing that has repeated itself like a thousand times before.The start of the day was great.Now,just some sentences or words ruined it all.Whatever..I just feel so tired and fed up inside.I wanted to change,I wish i can..but its they themselves who make it so difficult for me to do so..Am i in the wrong..i dont know.I dont know if i even care anymore.