Christmas?

Just had the christmas party yday...left the house in the morning to help decorate the place and stuff..stayed there till the party ..in the evening left to pick joe and wun..a very special thanks to alvin here =) And well..needless to say..the party was a blast..the food,the atmosphere,the ppl,the testimonies..as for the dance..i feel happy about it just that many nice parts were covered up by the smoke but nvm la..we gave our best..I was pretty tired needless to say after coming home..so i didnt online(i would have but my dad was using the comp) So off i slept and woke up this morning..And well,i started to think alot of things today..i know it may seem normal to me but alot of things are on my mind today..stuffs are just buzzing around in my head..Things that other ppl are doing convicted me but all i can do is just..think about it and feel dat burden yet i cant bring myself to do wat i wanna do so badly..Going online last time was a time of fun and relaxation but nowdays..i guess most of the time when im online,im just bombarded with words and actions of ppl that can just change my mood in a matter of mins or get me thinking ,wondering or asking myself why..i feel like im starting to drift away from people im close with..I mean,its like im still close with them but sumhow i feel like im drifting away from them sometimes..u understand?no?good.i dont really understand myself.And then christmas..well this isnt about myself.Today,i started to think and reflect..how many ppl actually do know the true meaning of christmas?Nowdays,christmas is overshadowed by advertisements,publicity,parties..and even a dumb old non-existent santa claus.And no,dont get me wrong pls.Im not saying parties are not all rite..puh lease,i just had one yday..Its only wrong when God is forgotten or overshadowed by all these events that ppl forget the true meaning of christmas.I once heard that how nowdays Christmas if being replaced with X'mas..that Christ is being replaced with X - stg that is used to represent stg unknown.yeah yeah i know ure thinking "cmon la its just a short form" and it might be so innocently used..but think about it.How true it is nowdays..That the Christmas is just being celebrated for an unknown reason by many..I see ppl putting "lonely christmas".."sad christmas" at their nicks..but hey,christmas isnt just another festive season or event..if u know christmas,u would know the joy it brings..and i might sound like im contradicting myself here cos i know i may sound not-so-joyous now but i do rejoice in Christmas..in knowing its significance.I thank God for Christmas..forget it if u dun understand me,im a difficult person i know.Scorn at me if u want,i dont care.Im not angry tho i might sound like it..i just feel..some sort of burden in my heart..something i cant express with words..only He can understand.I just have so many things on my mind now..But i choose to ignore it for now..i dont wanna spoil my day..but no matter wat,nothing will ever spoil Christmas for me.Nothing can because He's with me.Friends,I know i might not have ever said nor told this to any of u before..i was and perhaps still selfish and i duno if i ever will have the courage to tell u face to face...but i just want u all to know that..Jesus loves You.You might think christianity is just another religion,another belief..but its different.Yes,i konw everyone says theirs is the truth..but on my own life,i dare to tell you that He is the truth.Call me a fanatic or watever..But i choose to tell you this because i care for all of you..but no matter how much i may care,He cares and loves u even more than i or anyone could ever do,He came and died for you and me.Tho u might not know Him yet or even if u might hate Him,He still chose to die for You..and rose up again 3 days later,holding the key to everlasting life.I just hope that for those of u who might not know nor understand not even experience yet the true meaning of christmas,i pray and hope that someday, you will.I really wish all my heart you will..why not give Him a chance?give urself a chance..What have u got to lose?He's knocking at the door of YOUR heart today..Will you open it and invite Him in?When you do,i give you my word that it will be the best thing u can ever do in your life.Something u will nvr regret for a lifetime..Take care and blessed Christmas.