Decisions decisions.

Im gonna rant abit in this post..I have SO many things on my mind..Arghs.Ok,some of the questions buzzing in my mind are:

Are the subjects taught in all local Us in English?
Can I enter local U with SAM?
HOW to apply for scholarships?

I havent really thought abt scholarships til recently..as in scholarships from sime darby,those companies kinda thing..and the scholarships are mainly for studying overseas purposes...So now.Im even more stuck than i ever was before because i totally have no idea.I mean,if i know for sure that i wont get any scholarships,then i can at least decide what to do and where to go pretty soon.But to know if i'll get it or not,its gonna take some time and thruout that whole time i cant register anywhere yet cos wat IF i do get a scholarship to go overseas?Then i might take a 1+2 or stg.Otherwise,i'll just stick to a full local course or i might do credit transfer at UCSI IF i do choose to take up food science.see how many IFs are there? And another thing is that if i can enter local u,i'll have to consider even more choices.IF i can enter local u,i might do nutrition and dietetics or IF i get a scholarship from who knows where to do a 1+3 at Taylors. I've been searching websites...and bookmarked who knows how many websites til my whole bookmark tab is unorganized AGAIN. Honestly,i know I shouldnt worry myself abt all these..I just need to put my trust in Him and know that He's in control of everything..and as long as He's with me,everything will be alright.But its just that,there's so much thing to do..and im so blur wiith it all..i need prayers..for my fellow bros and sis in Christ,pls pray for me. This is such an important decision in my life..and thats probably why i still cant make up my mind.But I also admit,that i find it so hard to decide cause I'll keep on think how the other road would be like..If i choose this path,I might nvr ever get to go down the other one..and at the back of my mind,I would think how the other road would be..would it be better?would i like it more if i take that road?But i know...that i can only choose ONE road.and i might nvr ever get to travel the other.Thats what choices are all about arent they? Ok,most of u reading this might be thinking abt "The road not taken" poem we learnt back in form 4 literature.HAha.But well,sooner or later,i know i'll have to make that decision.And once i do,I wont look back.Just trust Him and acknowledge Him in watever decision i make.Like after spm,I really had no idea wat to do or where to go.I justknow i was going to do science..but i din even know wat..foundation?SAM?And even then,it was a tough decision to make..just much less complicated than now i suppose..But when I finally decided to do SAM,i said a prayer..asked God that this would be a decision I would not regret when I look back at the end of the day..And indeed,He's been faithful.More than faithful,He blessed me beyond what i dared to hope for =)

Another thing is..back in secondary school, I used to think that..whatever course i choose in the future,money isnt giong to be an important issue.The main thing was where my passion and heart lie..but as time passed..haha.I do start to realize the importance of money..And i guess i can understand my mom who used to argue with me before..when i had the interest in food science back in school..my mom thought that this wasnt a course with very good job prospects..she would much prefer me to do stg like accountancy and those kinda stuff with guaranteed job vacancies and better pay.And i used to think what does how much money u earn matter..what matters most is my interest rite.haha well yeah,my interest still matters alot today..but I have to admit, i have to be real.I have to take job prospects and money into perspective..I even thought of dentistry(which i kicked out already) because of these factors,and these are two factors i really do consider alot these days..which reminds me,i found a site that gives info abt the pay of certain jobs and found it to be pretty interesting.Like a true kampung girl, stg called jobstreet.com din occur to me til joe sern mentioned it-.- and it was much more interesting hah.But well at the end of the day,those two aren't the most important thing to me.What really matters IS STILL where my heart and passion lies.If money were what i cared most,i would have already jumped into accountancy or engineering or stg like dat.But thats stg I'll nvr do.Oh no.lol. But one thing i know and I will keep in mind..God's favour is upon me.And well,money and job vacancies..He'll provide.Jehovah Jireh is my provider.Remember that anne!ok im talking to myself now sorry -.- I just truly hope..really truly hope that whatever job i do in the future, it'll be one where i can shine His light.

Moving to other topics,Hugh Laurie won the Best Actor in a drama award at the golden globes yday for House!wahha!Well,i am pretty pleased that one of my fav series won stg heh.Btw, why arent shows like Prison break and CSI arent included?especially prison break!gr.not fair.Met the uncle yday abt the job..most probably i'll start work end of this month or beginning of feb.Its at some share markets company..or remiscer or stg.How ironic.Me of all the ppl working at that kinda place.Hahah.Even when i went there yday to see the uncle,I left thinking how some ppl can work there for years staring at numbers all day long.Hm.Maybe its super exciting to some ppl(like joe sern) but its so not my kinda thing.hehe.but Phew.At least i'll have stg to keep me occupied.And the best thing abt the job is..i can online while on work!wakaka.I had enuf of staying home..in fact, nearly my whole afternoon yday and today has been spent on national geographic and Discovery channel on astro.Im beginning to be a couch potato.yet on the other end,i really dun wanna start U anytime soon and get back to the havoc of assignments,hw,etc.how typical *rolls eyes* thank goodness my dad has a mini library at home and i got myself some books to read yday..hehe.Oh and one last thing I wanna give a piece of my mind on..After I watched the korean drama,Sassy girl (Can u hear adrian cheering?=p) which ended yday..it got me thinking..hey,If its yours,it will be yours.Sometimes,no matter how much you love someone,you can nvr earn his/her love back..and whats the point of forcing someone to be with you if his/her heart isnt there?Ure just making urself and others,especially the one u say u love oh so dearly, miserable.If you truly love someone,you would want him/her to be happy wont ya.Well,thats the way I see things..and thats one thing I can conclude from the multiple love stories Ive watched in my lifetime..but well,what can i say?Im just an amateur in lovey dovey stuffs..what could i possibly know u might say.haha.fair enough..but well,its still stg i believe in =)

p/s : Is my font too small?someone once told me it was o.O