Hopes and dreams..

Im back.again.I was actually ady back 2 days ago but i forgot my blogger got some kecacatan so after writing a novel-long post...ok im exxagerating.ANYWAY(mun k style hahahah!) after writing super long and i clicked "Publish"...POOF!My lovely tagbox appeared as my post and my REAL post well...i duno.Got eaten up by it i suppose.Ok forget abt blogger's kecacatan.Well,actually on my previous post(which nvr got posted) i talked quite alot abt something called...****. And no its not a foul word..Its a "lil" stg called..Love :) Anyway..i did some thinking and expressed quite alot abt it on my 'previous' post..Love..well,as u know there are all kinds of love;Godly love,family love,friendship kinda love..romantic love.By God's grace,I know the first 3 and im glad to have it in my life...regarding the latter..to be honest,I dont know how is it really like.To me, that kinda love was never really that important nor did it play a significant role in my life few years back..I was happy enough with my life..Friends seem to be more than enough..but as the years passed..slowly one by one of my gurlfriends seem to have found someone or at least experienced the bliss or pain of being in love.I couldnt help but wonder how is it like..to love a special someone so much..or to feel hurt or pain or to cry or to laugh because of someone..Of course,like most other teenagers back then,i had crushes and infatuations for certain individuals but those arent real..i was just naive back then as most of us were i guess hahah.And dont get me wrong all right?Im not saying its not ok to be single..Theres definitely ntg wrong with it.But if ure in a relationship,then treasure it cos who you have is a gift from God.And for me,i certainly dont think its easy to find someone who loves and accepts you for who you are so I definitely am not impressed with people who fool or play around with love or get into relationships just cause they think that if they dont,they're some kinda weirdo or stg or just cos they're desperate or for watever wrong or selfish reasons. Well i dont know if i'll ever find the right person or experience the pains and joys of being in love but i do know one thing,my future is in His hands amen?And He has His plans and purposes for me..in the end,He's the one who knows wats best for me =) And at least,im still young and there are still years ahead..I still have the chance to love and give,a chance to realize hopes and dreams,an opportunity to bless,encourage,forgive..while others may not have the chance to do so at all..Thanks to mun k,for reminding me this thru her blog =) Its so true..I guess all of us just tend to take things for granted...til it is taken away from us only then we learn to treasure it..

Love stories aside, I went to the edu fair at mid valley on sun..Yes.Edu fair.while most of my friends have already started uni..And there i am still searching for MORE info.I went hoping that the fair would help make things easier for me to decide..but instead,i went back with more headaches and confusion..I guess in the end i was kinda tired and fed up and just said a prayer to the Lord.Im still waiting...I still dare not take that step..Im afraid of making the wrong decision but sooner or later i know i have to choose.Theres just so many things that has been lingering in my mind regarding this,..the same thoughts than run thru my mind again and again..and to be honest,the options i once thought i can eliminate for good its now lingering in my mind again,being considered by the ever-so-indesivice-koala.Its funny though.All these years,God has provided me with so much..with everything and perhaps even more than wat i need..my studies,from primary to college can be said as a miracle,every bit of it was by God's grace..I know never would i have any of those results i have today without His presence in my life.The job i currently have..i didnt even go looking for it,it practically dropped out of nowhere into my hands..And yet at times i still find it so hard to fully surrender my future into His hands,despite knowing how much He's seen me through,despite knowing how faithful He is...Sigh.But im learning..and i hope the time will come when i can truly believe God for every single thing,big or small,hopes and dreams...for then,the word worry wouldnt exist in my dictionary.Teach me Lord to trust in You!I want to..

From next month onwards,the youth group will be split into two:Schooling group and College group..Schooling group still meets in church like usual on sat evenings but the college group will be meeting in different homes each month..more like a cell group..And well,to be honest..i wasnt too happy abt the splitting up..I know im gonna miss going to church on sat evenings which is what ive been doing for the past few years..I know im gonna miss playing for youth services..BUT..i know that there are more important things than all of this.Its not abt wat i feel or want.Though things wont be the same anymore but i guess its just time to move on..Time for the younger ones to rise up and take the lead..Time for us to grow and push forward..And im sure the Lord has wonderful things in store for us amen?!



All that I am, all that i have
I lay them down before You O Lord
All my regrets,all my acclaims
The joy and the pain
Im making them Yours..

Lord I offer my life to You
Everything Ive been through
Use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You
As a living sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life.

Things in the past,things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of hopes,all of my plans
My heart and my hands
Are lifted to You..

Lord I offer my life to You
Everything Ive been through
Use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord i offer You my life..